Overview of Thelemic Mysticism Part 2: Hadit

This is really the third in a series, so I’d recommend checking out the intro & part 1 to get the context behind all of this if you like.

If Nuit is the ultimately open aspect of the divine, then the radiating light of awareness is Hadit. He is the life-force that goes by many names, prana, odic, qi, etc. and as we discussed last time, he is the divine spark within each of us that is a star.

Yet he is not separate from the emptiness that is his consort. Any attempt to describe them as complete unto themselves will miss the mark, and so philosophy will get us almost nowhere in really getting him. Logic and science will really only make the issue worse, by forcing us to conceive in a dualistic manner.

How Hadit describes himself in several ways in his chapter will ultimately give us a picture to recognizing his nature within us. He then goes on explain the implications of realizing the truth of his & Nuits natures. While we won’t go into every detail here, we can explore much of the

The Living Light

The point of awareness has two basic qualities. One is the outwardly radiating aspect, and the other is a kind of inward pulling aspect. The awareness-light shines, and reflects itself as appearance. This is how Hadit, as the Khabs, gives rise to the Khu. How life itself becomes things that are alive in a living world. It never really is accumulated, but the reflections can become so appatently complex that the Khu-selves can completely forget the khabs from which it has arisen.

The Khu then lives a life if its own, and as the arrangement of khabs that made it up, the particular pattern of reflections that is the self breaks apart, the self dies. The Khabs undisturbed completely and kaleidoscopically shifting into its next arrangement.

But all the while, the khu suspects that something is strange about its existence. It feels, deep down, its temporary nature. It knows this as a deep sorrow, a pain that it can never quite rid itself of. And so it develops all kinds of strategies to both figure it out and protect itself from discovering the truth. All in hopes that it can relieve its pain of knowing without somehow coming to the inevitable conclusion that it will die, and worse yet, that it never existed in the first place.

This is why Hadit says that to know him is death. To the khu-self, it is. It was never anything more than a collection of awareness impressions that have no more substance than the awareness itself.

But as big a bummer as that sounds like it might be, it turns out to be the far better perspective to have, because when we face it and look into that awareness, we can fall into the dissolution with Nuit, and thereby discover life and joy in way that far surpasses anything our khu could come up with. Paradoxically, it makes the experience of the khu into a joy unto itself. It turns the world of pain and sorrow on its head, and makes it an adventure of wonder and discovery.

This is why we say that the path is not about escaping the world, but really living in it. The pains still come. But the more we practice, the more we come to know that the pain will end. The suffering will pass us by like a cloud before the sun. The sun shines on.

We therefore don’t run from the pains and difficulties in life, but rather, we are given the courage and fortitude to do what we will. To do that which is worth doing. To live our lives in service to the truest expression of the divine. Love.

The Kings among Kings

The important thing to remember is that there isn’t just one point of awareness. There’s an infinite expanse of them. It is every where. Looking within each beam of light reveals spark after spark.  To look deeply into the light of awareness is to fall into the openness of infinite space, to gaze into the dark is to unveil the scintilatting brightness.

The omnipresence of the point is what we call Keter. It’s the open door to infinity, just like a crown, hollow at its center. This is why opening up the crown of our own is the way to bring the lovers together in Dissolution.

The more we immerse ourselves in it, the more our perception of the interplay of Infinite Space and Infinite Stars become known to us. Our perceptions grow beyond the normal and clarity increases. Our nature changes.

The Silence of Dissolution stays with us and deepens. The crown stays open. The boundary between the various levels of being begin to waver before disappearing completely. The bodies and worlds all become a continuous display of light, throwing off hues and textures in countless combinations.

We come to dwell within the silence.  We begin to really understand what our nature is, and the more that nature is revealed, the closer we come to being men of Earth. For those of us who ultimately attain full awareness, there can never be death, because we have realized our undying nature.

So Death, the undesired light, is most desired and yet can never be. For though the pattern ceaselessly changes, there is that which remains unchanging. Life, without self hood is eternal and endless..We have become as the Gods, Lords of the Earth, self-slain and all conquering.

Blessing & worship to the prophet of the lovely Star!